My name is Deena. I'm 32 and single and have two precious children. I choose those words because every good mother feels that way about her kids. I'm sure it is ordinary to you, but I feel the need to share my frustrations with perfect strangers...so here goes!
It is six days until Christmas. Every year I shop to get my kids the WOW gifts for the big day, but because of job change and bills I have yet to do a single moment of Christmas shopping. My kids are five and six and this is the first year that they have been very vocal about their Christmas list...and I feel so guilty that I cannot fulfill their wants. I took a paycut about a month ago for less stress and more QT with the kids. I have both, but I do not have a Christmas. I know they will forgive me, but I cannot help but cry for my own self guilt. Don't get me wrong, they will have a Christmas from my family, but Mom isn't contributing this year. My family tells me to stop worrying, but I still feel helpless.
They are the greatest kids (everyone says that, I know). Ella is five and says the funniest things, and Lleyton is six and is so thoughtful. Please keep reading after this day. I will record things here that my older sister has been telling me to write down for years.
Keep listening and enjoy!!!
